Is there something wrong with me?
I think, sitting here among my piers,
not understanding a word they’re talking about.
They all laugh at the same time,
I don’t get the joke.
They’re all so social
like they get something that I don’t.
I chime in,
maybe I can make a joke too.
They go silent.
Maybe I just don’t belong in this group,
maybe there are others out there for me
to relate to.
I shift tracks
find others to get to know
but it all feels familiar.
Constantly shifting tracks
only to bring me back
to the same place I started.
Will I ever really find someone who gets me?
Maybe no one ever really feels comfortable
they just know how to fake it
better than I do.
Maybe those social cues elude me.